the fallacy of infinity concept

it is merelt a human concpet and human concept are unable to desrcibe the reality well, therefore infinity does not desribe reality well emoguh.

death

one should not fear death.

reason. if you spend ten minutes fearing death, you will still die.

if you don't fear for that ten minutes, you still will die.

sinde either way i am going to die, i will no choose to waste my ten minutes, i rather spent it on having sex with a prostitutes.

death is inevitable, under the sceanrio that man is not able to achieve immortality. so man should recognise and be able to accept the fact, accept the reality of life, and then proceed to live his life according to his plan before hos death,

nicest things on earth

it not having a car, or big house, or beautiful woman, or most popular artisite.

the most beautiful things is to be able to feel touched about something and cry in the process.
the process feels so nice . it just feels so nice.

the most stimulating is of cause the erotism and sex. it is prebuilt human function.

the second nicest feeling is laughter. it is a subject that mos tpeople do not learn about it.

however in the society, these feelings are seldom produced.

sex is very much different from laughter and being touched to tears. i cannot say which is better.

the rest of the things, on earth is pretty are less nice. like getting top result in school. or get one million dollar. they are indirect stuffs. what the end product of things to enjoy are the above three.

there are other nice things but the above three should be the best.

internet

one good thing about internet for humanity is that is increased the availability of self help infomation, if not in percentage but surley in terms of quantity wise surely got increased before internet was available.

there such increase in quanity should increase the people who learn for the whole life.

however, it also increase the availiability of wrong things like pornography, media, sensation things but not important, therefore, the muber of people who stops learning for life also increase.

thus, the point here is which effect is larger, that will determine the net result of the creation of internet.

the first few steps of self discovery

i remember when i was starting to learn about self improvement in the armys, i was met with both high and low period. then for a period, i went to a slow rate of learning as i was distracted with other things.

after few years and looking back, i realized that for beginners of self learning, there is a very huge barrier to overcome. because of two decades of intoxication and wrong beleifs, it is very hard to understand the fallacy of the world.

for example, your brain at that time is filled mostly with the bad armies, lets say eighty percent while the good armies are only thirties percent. because of these majority bad armies, despite picking up a few books about self improvement, it is likely that the bad armies will still win initially, and then they will continue to encroach your mind as you continue to live your life unaware of this event that is happening within yourself. that is why i say that those mistakes that people cannot detect and feel in life is worst than those that they can see.

during crisis, people are thrown to disarray and they start questioning what is really wrong with them and the life. it is only then they see the need to go into self reflection mode and this will increase the chance of starting this journey , a continuous and never ending journey of learning to slowly clear off the bad armies in their mind completley.

the bigger the crisis, the more the gain or loss. in a big loss, the person may commit suicide. in a big gain, the person may chance upon the realization of the amount of ignorance and reliance he has been living and hence starts on the process of detoxification.

as i have said, most people have about eighty or ninety percent of bad armies irregardless of their wealth at about age twenty, therefore, everyone finds it hard to begin and persist in this process.

exception occurs for people who parents have already themselves been learning continously since their younger times and have pass all their knowledge to their children. because such people have already existed long time ago, i have sufficient reason to believe that there has been a group of these people maybe five percent of the earth population who has been embarking on such journey but people of such nature are usually very low profile and simple because that is what exaclty these people will behave.

hence such people will not be able to spread this concepts to the majority becase most of their time they are always learning and cannot be teaching others because they have no time to. for the majority of people, also they have been to caught up with the confusion of these world at the twenty first century filled with politics, war, violence, poverty, fashion, idols, wrong education, sports, expensive and tasy food, powerful and deceitful mass media, trivialities, love, family, relationship, internet, health problems, crimes, dangers.

because the current world is filled with mainly errornous environment, they resultant effect of human which ironically created this errornous environment, is that they still are trapped in this vicious cycle. that explains why only a small fraction of people are travelling on this road of life long learning.

thiery henry once said this

"i am my own harshest critics"

learn to critique your own thinking and beliefs and leaves much space of improvement and uncertainty in term so that you can see a wider world.

don't be the classical frog in the well, i am refering to most of the human population.

doubt everything including yourself.

each day, for a regualr thinker, he or she is likely to make connections of the happenings f the events around her using common sense. however, in the process we are more likely to accept that our common sense is true and seldom doubt them. for example , he other day i say my mother saying she is tired for much of the day. immediately i thought of an internet article that says that cancer cells often causes lethargy in people. and i link the two together without have any doubt of my logic. this, is very very dangerous.

we should always leave many room of uncertainty with our thoughts, theories, as well as what you see in the media, internet both proposer and opposer of issues. everyone and everything has much room of uncertainity and we are merely use our logic to our best of our ability to estimate roughly(better than nothing) to link things in our life.

remember, doubt everything including yourself and your logic. all the time!!!!!!!!!!!!

this brings me to an important point. leran how to be a skeptics of everything.

diffculty of self imrpovement

in the initial stage, we have been more or less been intoxicated for about two decades. each mistakes is related to one another and makes you very hard to improve.

therefore improvement is slow and faces many diffculty.

for example, if you want to ask a person "you need to reassess your priorties in life given the depression state you are in."

however for the person what kind of priorities will he give." my priorities are my career , wife and children and parents, so i need to give up my friends "

the problems is this, to answer this question properly on what is the right priorities, you need to correct many many many beleifs first. which for most people they have already mess up many parts of their life. therefore, for them they will not answer the question well. this explains why people who are on the road to self discovery finds that their so called understanding of certain thigns needs to be reunderstand repeatedly becuase they will find that their theories are always have so problems.

they need patient and understand that a life of self discovery and life is fraught with mistakes which is very important actually.

if you avoid improving yourself and reflect, then you will lead a happy and sad life and mostly normal period. although most people will face only a few crisis that does not mean that a non improving life is better because you only face a few crisis , many sad and happy and mostly normal period, while mpt need to spend time reading improvment stuff.

however, without all thiese knowledge, you will make many many mistakes that you will not be even notice. although unnoticed mistakes will not make you cry, but that is precisely the dangerous part, they are wasting your tiem and effort without you even knowing and you are probably spending time listening to what your boyfriend have to say to you about the delicious meal that they have had.

mid life crisis happens to people who have the opportunity that realize that for the past fifty years they have been going with the flow.

example

let says you get D, D+, C+, c , b for exam in university.

the issue is neutral, the result of person so and so is as above. it involves no feeling.

so where does the feeling comes from.

the person. lets add person a and b.

person a. looks at his result and cry. he feels that this is an unaccepted result for him. for the next two days he keeps remembering his results and starts thinking about it.

person b looks at his result for a while, feels nothing and then continue to go to downstairs and play soccer with his neighbours. he did not think anything about the results at all.

obviously, we can see that the so called emotion are actaully a variable factoe. in fact, it has no constructive use regarding the matter.

we now look at the logic of the matter. first, we leave out the emotion factor, because they are not useful and are merely phyiscal sensations. there is nothing to be sad or even happy if you get straights As. we should always look at the logic of the issue in multpile perspective and how we should act on it in a objective way.

logic of issue- this results means no need to retake. the cap score is lowered. these are some basic facts, but we no need to feel anything about it. is there anything to change? no . then you drop making planning for the thing. if there are things to change, then you plan for it. work out a business plan, just like when you are making a business, making a assesment, doing a project.

see, the idea is to be constructive.

feelings are physical manifestation

yes i am right. funny, humorous, happy, jubilant, eager , sad, jealousy and fear are all actually physical sensations. however, when we communicate with people, it is easier to bundle all the descrptions to these adjectives to bring across the idea faster.

of course such a benefit also has cons. first, people are too frequently using such adjectives that they forget that they are physical manifestations and has nothing much to do with the issue at hand. instead, the more they focus on adjectives, the more concrete these words becomes.

then, these words are package together with unique situations and form a package of when-do-get situation. a kind of cycle, when you are preprogramme to react in certain kind of ways in situations.

the benefit? well, you react to things automatically, and hence there is this kind of efficiency in doing things.

the problems? many of our reaction to things ar eincorrect, and we are not aware of it. because they are really too many things in life, we busy ourselves with too many things and hence given the same amount of time, we have less time for each thing and with less time, you of course have less time to reflect and correct any mistakes you have in the problems.

to break up many of this undesriable eelings-thoughts-reaction to issues in life that wastes much of our time lsoing ourselves and mismanaging the issue, we have to learn each of the sequence, component and spend many time. because all this happens within ashort period of time, it makes it harder for us to separate each of them and look at them objectively to learn about the nature of them and the correlation between one another so that we can control more things , even if not everything also fine.

lets say you are instructed to carry a heavy sandbag to the end of the shooting range that is hundred metre away. you have only few hours of sleep yesterday hence you are semi conscious and feeling very irritated and frustrated all happening very fast. as a result, you feel your unhappiness and belief that thigns are happening bad for yo u at the moment, so you do certain actions like frowning or squeezing your eyebrows in despair. then with all these reactions, your brain senses them and realize from experiences that this king of reactions is associataed with unhappiness and frustration. so you has this second wave of realization that you are really in unhappy mode and the situation is really unhappy. you start thinking that life is unfair and army sucks. and you see yourselvse in the green hot uniform and carrying with you much annoying emotions. all these are happening in a very fast manner and usually people are not being able to distinguish what the hell is exaclty happen. they only come up with wrong causal reasoning like, "i am in this shit because of the event" and make their life worse. altogether they may have spent twenty minutese here and there making their life worse because they combined all the thoughts , feelings reactions and issue at hand together and make quick conclusion about it. this kind of this is called the conditioning effect where things are attached to things even though they are independent but because they happen more or less at the same time, the human brain perceive to be a packaged thing and are related in a way which is in truth not the case. they just happen at the same time. moreover, people today are very used to multi tasking wheree they try to do different things all at the same time and althoug its seems like they have done many things it is not so instead they habit of changing your focus here and there has certains pros and cons and you need to be very cautious about it to strike a fine balance. the example is like what my teacher say a vicious cycle.

first, you must isolate your reactions, sensations, your thougths and remind yourself they are separate entities. don't let the sensation of discomfort caused by the frowning of eyebrows attached to the carrying of the heavy sandbag and conclude that carrying sandbag is really discomfort when not knowing that your frowning eyebrows is a source of discomfort in itself which can be removed if you stop frowning.

your reactions are so because of your habits and past experiences that you will react in this way if this happens. a conditioning. maybe at the time , you have no time to figure out exactly why this is so but at least you should not let you reactions spill over to other sectors. never fight your reactions and think this is a non ideal reaction i must not make this mistake now. instead, acknowledge it. reactions are usually related to the releases of chemicals, and yeah, feelings also.
so even if there are no triggers anymore, they need more time to settle down when the chemicals finally ceased to take effect.

thoughts is related to language you in language we have what we called logical fallacies meaning that certain sentences are false or true and also with a certain degree of accuracy. the point is, our thoughts is also a random words generator that churn out ideas in a certaiin complex way. this certain has its advatndges to me. but also disadvantges.

so the unifying solution to such effect of random thoguhts, or complex thoughts to be more accurate is that when your brain is throwing up ideas, opinions, decisions and concepts, you must be be very careful with them, don't commit the mistakes of jumping to conlusion, carefully look at the complexity of the issue at hand, and all other logical problems. even whne you realize you make a mistakes or make a correct point, that itself, is also containing logical things on whtether you knwo how you react to you reaction, like how you thinkin about your thnking, how you feel about your feeling.

my errornous habit

when it comes to explainging causal relationship. i always or frequently commit the mistake of quick conclusion.

first, when two things happen in sequence or close proximity, i tend to collade then together and say that one causes another.

second, i tend to be narrow minded in the analysis of things, when my mother is sick for one week, i tend to conclude that she would continue to be weak or even weaker because she has been sick for so long already, hence that should be the pattern later on. i seem to believe that the matter is simple causation

third, i tend to see things in a linear manner and fit simple theories into the picture and predict the outcome. of course the probability of error is high because you fail to take into account all the factors.

the reasons for all this short sightedness is due to naive, low awareness. i fail to identify the nature of the issue. if a issue is complex, and even the world outside does not have a full grip on it, like cancer or career or making money, then you have to remind that it is complex regularly and so you will not be too quick to conclude anything when in it.

tell yourself this" okay, this issue is highly complex with many interconnected factors which require detail analysis, writing down on paper all the factors, and giving weightage to each and the corresponding factors plus all the unknown ones. therefore, by just thinking off the brain, you cannot come to accurate conclusion by most thing, especailly those very complex ones. however, within the issue there may be simple issue depending on how you question the issue"

for example, in cancer issue" if you ask how will the patient feel tomorrow? then you can only be a little bit accurate.

if you ask"how the patient will be feeling the next second, then the guess will be more accurate"

hence the predictablility of issue or effects depend on certain things

time, the longer it is the more difficult to say because there will be many effects and causes rolling continously.

waht you are asking or predicitng, if you predict something with a very wide range, that of course the outcome has higher chacnes of falling in it.

if you issue is very simple and uncomplicated like how do you balance the pole then it will be easier than the question will the stocks of enron drop or rise tomorrow.

in short. complexity, ranger, time. are the factors i have name.

so remember, make sure you are sensitive to your thoughts that make conclusion subconcious or not. don't let your brain make subconscious beliefs, ideas, or causation theroies too hastily. filter your thoughts carefully. other wise they will hide in your brain without your knowledge and will affect your analysis of things and hence decisions an althoguh you will not die, you have a more difficult time, finding yourself trying to clear those illogical things in your head and waste precious time.

again, you can see that there are general things in life we have to learn as well as details and specifics things like this we have to learn. there is not sudden enlighten, or some super important theories that makes you understand everything and you can stop learning already.

i guess that every bit of infomation or knowledge are useful equally, some relevant some not so relevant and the learning process is more focus on continous improvement bit by bit instead of making quatam jumps as if you have hot gold. yeah right. suck my foot is you think you hit gold. if not for you previous experiences do you think you would have hit the gold.

complex issues vs simple issues

if your dad asks you to buy tomatoes for dinner and you then decides which market to go
you go to the nearer one. such problem is simple.

if you are deciding what subjects to take for your university and the amount of factors there are and the unawareness of infomation is so big, you have a complex situation.

complex situation will take time to understand it. so when you see certain things that should be done this way but so many people are not doing the correct ways after a few years, that means the issue you have thought is logical is actually quite a complex case, which explains why so many people have different opinions on it.

a good example is love. you have sufficient proof that is does not exist at all. but if you ask most people, they either believe in love or they are unsure of it, sitting on the fan. therefore love may be a complex situation, but it may not be.

another one is god, and religion. complex.

another reason why so many obvious things to me is not obvious to people is because of this. the people are running in a mouse wheel. they work and have been brainwashed and tricked. therefore, logical things is illogical to them because their thinking and logics are wrong in the first place.

reduce the importance of money, studies.

there are many thing that are of equal importance. but due to the skewed society of capitalism, we have placed too much emphasis on money, career, relationship and ego. ego and relationship are nonsense because if you have one million friend, you will still die. if you have no friend, you still die. so if you have no friend that is all right, you will not be banished to hell because of your loneliness.

full accountability of life means you minize your dependence on others and that make you pretty much self sufficient. no man is an island is a fallacious argument after all.

money is often place too much value in my eyes. there are certain concepts of money that you have to learn to know how to earn more money, and save more money and spend wisely, using reduce, ecycle and reuse concepts among the few. however, besides learning about money which the news[paper and magazines have been seeling like hot cakes about money, there are many pothers things to learn.

namely, the fallacy of religion, what is facial expression, what is the human anatomy, what is the evolution, what is the universe made up of, how to use speak properly, how do you be more aware of yourself, what is conflict and why is there so many conflicts, what is capitalism, what is internet, how does internet affects us, what is gettier problem, what is chaos theories, what is the ongevity issue, what is creativity, what is the mind made up of, what is the purpose of our life, what is similiarities and differences of things, what is reaction, what is the relationship between our beliefs sstem, our behavior, our mind, our physical sensation? what is now? what is self?, why do human have emotions, is emotions correct, what is language, how does human react to dangerous situation, what is death, what is after death, what is logic, how do we correct our beliefs system, how do we relearn what is wrong, what is national service, what is the relationship ns have with government, what is disease, what is the country sytem of world. all knowledge are relevant they tell you what the fuck reality is. the money is a super big blanket that we placed our life on. we are too blind, too scared, too fearful to know the ugly and cruel picture below.

so for goodness sake, do not put money on the priority list. elevate all other things such as knowledge to the same level as money and rades and results, and dedline.

don't be a frog in the well. understand the picture and form the coorect path you have to travel so that you lay a smoother path in your life so that you die will less trouble and excess baggage.

what is ego

according to my understanding, i would define ego as

the way we see ourselves and the world, what is important and what is not.

the problems come when we do not evaluate our ego to see if it is serving us. we just assume it and feed it wherever it feels like going. by the time you realise its fallacy, it has already built a large layers of false behavior in you.

it is frightening to peel them off to see what is beneath, because fear is also a common bad habit.
but you still have to do it. after finish peeling, you will start to live what people call an authentic life and one with no time for anger, jealously or fear. you will undersatnd the uncertainity theory and not try to force against life event. buddhism call it going with the flow of karma.

you will minimise your burden in life and starts to live life simply because you realize simplicity is the cheapest form of lifestyle. you will see conflicts as unneccessarily because you have no pride and there is no need for one in the first place.

summary

okay. worst case scenario. longevity is not happening in my lifetime. so i will die. like six hundred billion people since our ancestors decide to stop climbing trees and walk on two foot.

this, i acknowledge, and will move on. it means that whatever happens, don't be afraid, because the final outcome is going to be the same, death for me. lottery still means death. handicap still means death. anything also means death at the end of the day.

death is a very important infomation that points what you should do with your life. first, don't earn too much money. earn just enough to die. second, don't waste my precious time feeling low and regretful over spilled milk like a failed exam. i will rather read a boring magazine because life is limited and i am not going to be a wimpy fellow.

in life, we have to be efficient. the world, particularly today's, is ever changing. therefore, we have to change at a variable freqeuncy so that it fits whatever siutation the world is at that moment. remember, everything is interconnected. to make sound decisions, we need infomation and experience, so we have to do a lot of general learning at the early part of our life.

as time passes, we adjust the frequency of information collection until we find that we have increased our frequency of playing. playing here is defined as a general term for anything your like to do. it is done, when you realize that you really do not have much problem to deal with and you cannot be preparing for adversity every minute. hence the freqency of learning will be lowered. it should be noted that learning can also be considered as playing in certain context.

if you get a very big change, like blindness, lost both legs, mute or hearing impaired permanently forever(assumption) that will involves very great change relative to situation like bankruptcy, post traumatic case or going into prison for two years. in latter case, you still are full limb although you may undergo some hard life in the prison or as war prisoners, whatever. but after the period, you are still in one piece. in former cases, you have lesser things to do and greater immobility in the smaller body. quantitively, you will have many things but relative to the past, it is still worst but you just have to understand that these kinds of things can happen, despite low probability. if it happens to me, it happens to me. no point wasting my limited life trying to figure how on earth did this happen to me when there is such low probability.

blindness. go to the blind association immendiately, or handicapped association and get a job. there are also many jobs that does not require legs or hands, trust me. percentage wise, your job prospects will drop, but quantity will, it will never reach zero. trust me for god sake. please note that my usage of the word god does not implies my belief of its existence. i am using it for fun. many jobs in the world, particulary today, involves primary knowledge and hence the brain. therefore, i will still be able to hold a job.

to deliberately worsen my case, i add one more disease to myself. brain disorder. so i suffer intense headache for most the time. okay, now i can give up the idea of working. your parents are going to waste money rearing me, the useless living thing or vegetable. hopefully the government will give some grants. well most family will feel resenful about me or feel sad for themselves why they are so unfortunate. well, it is not withing my control that i will be a burden to them. i probably will not commit suicide. if i want to, i must see the case. i guess the probability is low to kill myself. but we shall see.

if my family is handicapped, then i will support them. it is a bad thing to have extra expenditure onot on myself but there is no other choice. i cannot possibly murder people. if i have to take care of the expenditure, then i will do it. and once again, because my time on earth is limited as a full piece of meat, i shall not dwell on the unfortunate thing. infact, i will not view it as unfortunate. i will view it as what it is. i have to pay for the living expenses. just like death is inevitable. whatever that happens is also. lets just move on.

then one day, while i am walking along the dark alley, some idiot jumps from behind and kills me. end of story. because in death there is oblivion, i thus no need to think anymore which seems quite good, cause thinking is troublesome. of course i am joking. living is better than death until death is not scary at all. it bad to die no doubt. but it is not frightening. for god sake when i see people shaking in fear, i only see time being wasted to shake in fear over the issue of their death. waht they are doing is only wasting their precious limited lifetime.

many things in life is not within our control because we are mortal. read this, we are mortal. we are smarter than chimpanzees but we are not smart enough yet at least in this year 2005. we still have not ensure world peace, eliminate terrorism, kills dieases and viruses, prevent accidents and crimes. our mortal body has one zillion and one ways to die so we are not very powerful yet despite the easy access to pornography of almost everyone. and because the world is so engrossed in whether michael jackson is huilty or not, and so engross in the never ending newest handphones that has all the marvel of the world, i do not see human achieve good progess in the more important areas that will help to lengthen and protect our lives. all thanks to capitalism and human stupidity!

so if i recovered miraclously from the stabbing idiot, then i sit at home at ponder on my still living life. i ask myself, " who am i? what exaclty is the sense of self?" the sense of self is actually our senses attached to the physical body which you see at a first person view which happens to be you. if the person across the road is being hit by a falling flower pot on his head. he will feel the full force of the pain whereas you will not. why? because the person is the person and i is i. that is where our sense of self is derived. our senses all attached to this very body you see and hear from the first person view. our ideas and beliefs are contain in this very brain in which your body contains.

whenever, you want to help some other people, such an act is called selfless and kind. i shall not debate against this words and admit you are indeed loving peron. but i need you to look deeper and realize this. iyou help because you believe in helping. i do not want to talk about right or wrong now. the point is you are following your beliefs. so the driving force in everbody life is their beleifs.

beleifs ranges from unconcious to conscious. unconcious are usually those who we copy from others or are too lazy and not bothered to think about them. why? call it human stupidity loh.
we have to dig out all the beleifs and habits and question them one by one like criminals. they hold important infomation which will assist us in our life. to find them out, we first must increase our frqeuncey of self awareness. then we use our logic to testproof them and change to better beliefs. then our lives will be improved.

it takes time to correct our beliefs, anayltical skills, logical perspective, multiple perspective. initially, we will make many mistakes. for example, a young girl who has no experience of the real world, who has been taught the wrong things for the first two decades of her life and who have her parents feeding her with food and money all the time surely has no logical tools, multi perspectives, correct ideas and beliefs about life. therefore, be expected to make mistakes. be patient. there is nothing to rush. the key is to improve bit by bit. to focus on the process and not at a absolute point. anyway, you do remember that out of control thing like prison, death, and handicap can happen anytime.

infomation and knwoledge are primarily collected from internet and books. on these note, i shall end my speech

logic and habits

figure that they are an important category.

logic refers to how something should be done due to reasoning.
habits is something that we keep doing the same things so that we can do it automatically and fast. but when we are changing ourselves, according to our logic, we tend to stay unchanged because habits is in effect. so whenever you identify a habit and the need to change, remember to change the habit. how do you change? follow nike advice. Just do it. in some cases, you realize you cannot change. this maybe due wrong logic which you assume that is was right.

words to aviod

FEEL GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF, your relative superiorty

love, hope, desire, wish, proud, look down on others

sad, happy, jealous, guilty,

a lot of feelings and ideas are empty, do not waste time dwelling in them, goood or bad.
focus on actions and rationale thinking, be productive.

feeling good about your maturity.
if you find that others are a few laps behind him, one coomon bad habit is overconfidence and arrogance or superior feeling.

logic: if you are indeed better than others, use this infomation in a productive way. feeling good about yourself is a waste of time. first, you do not have proof that you are really better, you only think you are better, based on observations, but our observations and logic may be wrong.

even if it is true that others are worse than you, so what, it is not good for them, nothing to do with me. you must be able to dish out the application of infomation by being more perspective and more application oriented.

for example, if there are 2 person, you bserve that person A is more capable than B at handling this project, so you hand it to A to do it, making a correct choice. this is where you use your observantion skills of others into practical use.

human bad habit

failure to observe our beliefs, actions process.

human do things based on beliefs, and decide what to do among the variety of options he sees.

first error comes from, not seeing all the options in front. one has to be far sighted. compromise between time and number is present.

second, human thinks and acts instaneuosly without breaking down and reflecting on the validty of each station. in times of doing work, we have no time. but during our free time, we have abundant of practice, but we chose to let our mind auto pilot and follow our preferences and habits blindly without relfectings on ourselves. awarenss of our thinking and beleifs process is important.

i shall attempt to classify things today

probelms are caused by
-the way our brain and perception works
-learning the wrong things(society) since young
-society

solutions are thus
-reasoning

from reasoning we learn
- human anatomy
- society pitfalls
- good things churned out by society

reasons for suffering

ever since we are born into this world, we learn the wrong things, we learn to play first, enjoy, see wrong ideas and beliefs from the media, parents are poor equpied with good beliefs, the society is geared towards a capitalists system which is very harmful towards understanding life as it focus on monetary things, a man made thing, poor education, wrong subjects being emphasized, religion. so called freedom of actions, ideas may not be a good ideas because our surrounding if left free spread more wrong ideas than right, as a result we suffer.

personally, i was intoxicated for 20 years as i start to question the contradiction of things in life at age 18. the process of discovering the truth of the so called democracy and freedom is nothing more than a huge web of lies and messiness that has no logic or rationale.

i am still in the process of detoxifying all the wrong ideas, understand the limits of my mortal brain, and fixing every wrong concepts i can find through crisis. there is nothing fabulous about blasting off those wrong ideas. the process of understanding thigngs rationally serves to make you be at ease while the world is moving in a chaotic and possibly dangerous way where no one safety is gauranteed and even if there is, we will die of mortal aging.

the human struture also has certain attributes which causes us to interpret things wrongly because our human anatomy is really no a perfect piece of art, with no pain, no aging and immortal body. instead, our nerve sensory is a pain system, our brain cannot perceive logic of things separated from the emotional, reactionary, and physical sensation. confusio between the various body phenomenon is often mixed up.

such limitations has to be overcome by learning and understanding the human pyschology, biology, through experimental and observations of ourselves and studying, reading up of huge amount of materials in the web and making many errors in the process combining with knowledge of other aspects of life here and there. the aim is to improve ourselves bit by bit, not knowing where it will end or go to except that it creates more clamness and awareness of the workings of things. full knowledge is impossible, we seek to take learning as a process instead of end.

i conjecture that logic, reasoning and rationale is for me the base knowledge to input so that my analysis on other general and concepts will make less mistakes. as i have stated in my dairy, my concerns and weakness lies in family, causing accidents or great error, safety, health, pain, money.

as i look around me, most people are moving at the wrong directions of life. even scientists and gurus are not very right. but i seriously cannot be bothered if other die or live. i am stuck with my htis body anyway.

river and boat story

i am in the boat steering it in my life. if you do nothing, your boat will move by its own randomly and in a capitalist system, you will not die, but you will just shortcahange yourself. your boat will not sink. only when you meet with accident , crime, illness, or old age, will it sink, or suicide.

life is complex, just like the river. you can see only the surface, you cannot see the undercurrent. so while we are steerin to where it want to go, we are not in total control. if it makes us hit the rock, so be it. you should know that that is life, you have no comtrol, so you do what you can.

latest advice

quatam computer, mutliple universe, anti ageing, cancer and unceratinty theroies are some of the theroies i have been reading up lately during the 3 months holiday.

the conclusions are as follow. people will die - probability 80%. so if possible, be a little bit heatlh conscious so that you will board the longevity train when science has finally caught up with human anatomy of aging, cancer and disease alike.

sounds sad. no. inevitable ? yes. assuming that we are going to live finitely, then so what. don't think too much. acceptance of reality is needed. upon death, you will not know just like going into sleep without realizing that you are dead. nothing scary itself, but more of a fear of death itself.

suffering pain. sad? no. bad? yes. if i have a power, than i will remove this pain nerve system of human and replace it with some color detection system where no pain is involve but still can achieve illness or danger detection. but apparenlty this is not within my control. again accept reality. if we change the perception of pain, we can reduce it to merely physical endurance without all the addtional fear and stress that are self induced.

so far, man is in pretty bad shape right, with super bug, bird flu that may wipe me, out. erh.... really, many things are not within my control. the focus is identify what is with my control and what is not so that i will not waste time on things i cannot control. to do this i need to be more senstive to things and more aware.

things i can control is percentage terms are small, but because there are infinte things on earth, when expressed in terms of quantity, things i can do is many.

with constatn quest of knowledge and concepts that serve me to smarter way of living finite or infinite, i ceased to divulge my arsenal of weaponary that i have found. everyone is accountable for their own life and not others. so you whould do your own homework do find the so called meaning of life. learning is pretty much life long process. it is just a matter of how frequently do you need to study and how frequently you need to live in the moment.