the first few steps of self discovery

i remember when i was starting to learn about self improvement in the armys, i was met with both high and low period. then for a period, i went to a slow rate of learning as i was distracted with other things.

after few years and looking back, i realized that for beginners of self learning, there is a very huge barrier to overcome. because of two decades of intoxication and wrong beleifs, it is very hard to understand the fallacy of the world.

for example, your brain at that time is filled mostly with the bad armies, lets say eighty percent while the good armies are only thirties percent. because of these majority bad armies, despite picking up a few books about self improvement, it is likely that the bad armies will still win initially, and then they will continue to encroach your mind as you continue to live your life unaware of this event that is happening within yourself. that is why i say that those mistakes that people cannot detect and feel in life is worst than those that they can see.

during crisis, people are thrown to disarray and they start questioning what is really wrong with them and the life. it is only then they see the need to go into self reflection mode and this will increase the chance of starting this journey , a continuous and never ending journey of learning to slowly clear off the bad armies in their mind completley.

the bigger the crisis, the more the gain or loss. in a big loss, the person may commit suicide. in a big gain, the person may chance upon the realization of the amount of ignorance and reliance he has been living and hence starts on the process of detoxification.

as i have said, most people have about eighty or ninety percent of bad armies irregardless of their wealth at about age twenty, therefore, everyone finds it hard to begin and persist in this process.

exception occurs for people who parents have already themselves been learning continously since their younger times and have pass all their knowledge to their children. because such people have already existed long time ago, i have sufficient reason to believe that there has been a group of these people maybe five percent of the earth population who has been embarking on such journey but people of such nature are usually very low profile and simple because that is what exaclty these people will behave.

hence such people will not be able to spread this concepts to the majority becase most of their time they are always learning and cannot be teaching others because they have no time to. for the majority of people, also they have been to caught up with the confusion of these world at the twenty first century filled with politics, war, violence, poverty, fashion, idols, wrong education, sports, expensive and tasy food, powerful and deceitful mass media, trivialities, love, family, relationship, internet, health problems, crimes, dangers.

because the current world is filled with mainly errornous environment, they resultant effect of human which ironically created this errornous environment, is that they still are trapped in this vicious cycle. that explains why only a small fraction of people are travelling on this road of life long learning.