reasons for suffering

ever since we are born into this world, we learn the wrong things, we learn to play first, enjoy, see wrong ideas and beliefs from the media, parents are poor equpied with good beliefs, the society is geared towards a capitalists system which is very harmful towards understanding life as it focus on monetary things, a man made thing, poor education, wrong subjects being emphasized, religion. so called freedom of actions, ideas may not be a good ideas because our surrounding if left free spread more wrong ideas than right, as a result we suffer.

personally, i was intoxicated for 20 years as i start to question the contradiction of things in life at age 18. the process of discovering the truth of the so called democracy and freedom is nothing more than a huge web of lies and messiness that has no logic or rationale.

i am still in the process of detoxifying all the wrong ideas, understand the limits of my mortal brain, and fixing every wrong concepts i can find through crisis. there is nothing fabulous about blasting off those wrong ideas. the process of understanding thigngs rationally serves to make you be at ease while the world is moving in a chaotic and possibly dangerous way where no one safety is gauranteed and even if there is, we will die of mortal aging.

the human struture also has certain attributes which causes us to interpret things wrongly because our human anatomy is really no a perfect piece of art, with no pain, no aging and immortal body. instead, our nerve sensory is a pain system, our brain cannot perceive logic of things separated from the emotional, reactionary, and physical sensation. confusio between the various body phenomenon is often mixed up.

such limitations has to be overcome by learning and understanding the human pyschology, biology, through experimental and observations of ourselves and studying, reading up of huge amount of materials in the web and making many errors in the process combining with knowledge of other aspects of life here and there. the aim is to improve ourselves bit by bit, not knowing where it will end or go to except that it creates more clamness and awareness of the workings of things. full knowledge is impossible, we seek to take learning as a process instead of end.

i conjecture that logic, reasoning and rationale is for me the base knowledge to input so that my analysis on other general and concepts will make less mistakes. as i have stated in my dairy, my concerns and weakness lies in family, causing accidents or great error, safety, health, pain, money.

as i look around me, most people are moving at the wrong directions of life. even scientists and gurus are not very right. but i seriously cannot be bothered if other die or live. i am stuck with my htis body anyway.