what to expect throughout my life?

1. either you are focussing on an activity ie talking with interviewers, cleaning the rifle
or you are not doing an activity like thinking and reflecting.
2. feeling neutral and calm is the best you can get other if you are not excited or feeling shiok, that is all you need, even if other people are exhibiting happy moods and asking you why you so bored.
3. feeling neutral, which reflects your body peaceful state, some discomfort or tired.