refering to third post below me,

i say that i keep reminding myself that the grades i aim to get is uncertain so whatever happens i have to be calm. and now i am not only aiming to get good grades, i am also aiming to be calm. Hence, i originally was setting one aim only. then , another aim is set up, though i dunno how aware i am, but i guess i am not fully aware of the various aims that i have created.

while achieving one aim, i did not achieve the other, this subconsiocus or whatever failure, lead me to feel uncomfortable, so this discomfort will be used to search for what is the cause of this uncomfort. usually, you cannot spot the correct source until some time or you just forget the whole thing until it happens next time.

anyway, on a slight different issue, i guess the solution for all the three posts including this one is this. the above paragraph tells me that in order to solve problems, you have to know that you are creating a number of wants or aim during a period of time and not knowing what that they exist and what are they will make troubleshoooting impossible.

secondly, from the recursive concept, it requires you to see how one problem can be submerge in another problem and possibly more. therefore, your experience and knowledge has to be also mutli level to solve problems and see how they works well.

so when you become more aware and experience of this concepts and get more experience observing them happen to you in real life, your knowledge in this aspect will increase and this should then help you solve this area of problem, which i cannot name or label it well yet.

i also duuno if that involves other knowledge or concept to understand this area of problem but i think that i am at the edge of solving. and i just need maybe half more year to clear up the loose strings in this area.