some fear that i have am not too away

fear of stuttering
fear of behaving unreasonably in front of people and people will thus rate me badly for being unreasonable.
fear of not achieving calmness in nervous situation


all fear have to be unlearned by constantly reminding yourself that it is alright if they happen. why can't they happen. this is called trying to achieve and setting goals. these are healthy things but in the proces of achieving them, anything can happen and any goal, no matter how small or big , can be failed to be reached. at all cases, let nature takes it course and be okay with it.

if you have to stutter, than stutter
if you behave unreasonably, then so be it, just take note of it, you will improve it someday later, things cannot be rushed
if you are shaking, and your heart is beating in simple situation, so be it.

that means , that although i tell myself and practise to be calm, dun expect yourself to acieve it most of the time.