self conversation

do you know the significance of this coming exam?
ans: no

why?
ans: there are many hidden knowledge and effects that i don't know, so there is no way i can make any conlusion. meaning that if i get all distinction. it may mean a few things like why i am able to get distinction. but it does not represent the whole picture, like what i have miss out to learn and hidden issues. our brain often see things in a very narrow minded way.

so what is your plans with regards to studying? are you not going to set any goals?
ans: no goals unless i am very sure of the situation. the study issue is a very fuzzy picture now. i will follow nature path. " let the river decide where it wants to flow, and when i have my own gut feeling, i will steer my boat, when i have not gut feeling, i will allow the river to take charge again while i continue to collect infomation"