exam are here

one week from exam , i have not touch much of my school work. as i have convinced myself that i will take all situations normally, i did not panic like past semsters.

go with the flow and carry on with life whatever happens. but while going with the flow, must also predict, and learn but must not desire or yearn for anything, be objective as possible, but if emotion comes, and tears well up, do let your feeling flow. but gradually regain your own control so that you are stable and normal but the important thing is to change gradually.

i hope i can flow normally during this few weeks. i have many advices for many situations , so much that sometimes i am overwhelmed by them. then there are many general overlapping advices. i am feeling normal mostly, with few situations i feel emotional but so far i am quite conscious and allowing it to express itself and allow it to die down naturally, no forcing theory down my throat, mind actually.

the exam is the observation period. on myself on how i will react at all circumstances, and how i react upon my reactions. then the holiday is also interesting.

i feel as i am just beneath the sky. i have mastered some important things. i can transcend betwenn heaven and hell and earth. i am both god and human. i still do cry, do stutter and fear although i know if i learn , they should gradually be nullified and is totally controlled by me. i can remove them the moment they come, or anytime i want. this the the power i crave.